theres a lot of shit going on right now. someone I have been close to my entire life is in the process of dying. she is tired of trying to live, her heart has stopped working on one side, she isnt responding to any medicine, shes having seizures, and there is nothing that I can do. I knew that she wasnt going to live for much longer, she had ten years left if god had blessed her. I just figured she would live at least three or four years longer. It has only been a month or two since the diagnosis, and shes gone downhill so rapidly, and it breaks my heart. I love this woman. She has been like a second mother to me. Im her soul child. It just hurts to see her like this. Tonight they are taking all the tubes out, not giving her any more medicine, and letting nature take it way. Who knows how long she will last. They dont even know if she can make it home from the hospital alive. Its just so scary. I dont want to start my summer off with a funeral. Shes too young. A few years back she was going to adopt a toddler, and Im glad she didnt. There was no way of avoiding this disease. She could have been the healthiest person on the planet and would be in this condition right now. Damn DNA. I wont tell anyone who this woman is. No one. | 
